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Jumat, 25 November 2011

The one that got away

Summer after high school when we first met
We make up in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
like we had a clue
Never plan that one day
I'd be losing you

And in another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
Its time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse

And in another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]
The one that got away

[Bridge:]
All these money can't buy me a time machine (Nooooo)
Can't replace you with a million rings (Nooooo)
I shoulda told you what you meant to me (Woooooow)
Cause now I pay the price

And in another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

i won't let you go

When it’s black
Take a little time to hold yourself
Take a little time to feel around
Before it’s gone
You won’t let go, but you still keep on falling down
Remember how you saved me now
From all of my wrongs
And if there’s love just feel it
And if there’s life we’ll see it
This is no time to be alone, alone, yeah
I won’t let you go

Say those words, say those words like there’s nothing left
Close your eyes and you might begin that there is some way out
Open up, open up your heart to me now
Let it all come pouring out
There’s nothing I can’t take

And if there’s love just feel it
And if there’s life we’ll see it
This is no time to be alone, alone, yeah
I won’t let you go

(Won’t let you go, won’t let you go)
And if your sky falling,
Just take my hand and hold it
You don’t have to be alone, alone, yeah
I won’t let you go

(Won’t let you go, won’t let you go)

And if you feel the failing of the light
And you’re too weak to carry on the fight
And all your friends that you care for have disappeared
I’ll be here now darling, forever, holding on
Woah

And if there’s love just feel it
And if there’s life we’ll see it
This is no time to be alone, alone, yeah
I won’t let you go

(Won’t let you go, won’t let you go)
Woah no

And if your sky falling
Just take my hand and hold it
You don’t have to be alone, alone, yeah
I won’t let you go

(Won’t let you go, won’t let you go)
Woah no, yeah

I won’t let you go, no I wont let
I won’t let you go, no I wont let
I won’t let you go, no I wont let you go

Gravity

Gravity
Stop pullin’ me

I know that you still haven’t found you,
And when I wanna stand on my own too
Suddenly you start to show
Signs of what is possible

Then you’re back to your ways
And I let me down
Tell me why I keep tryin’a stay around
When all my family
They always telling me

To be through with you
And I know that deep down I’m callin’ time on you
On you
On you

Every time I’m ready to leave
Always seem to be
Pullin’ in the wrong direction
Divin’ in with no protection
Man, you can’t keep steerin’ me wrong

Oh gravity
Pullin’ me back
Pullin’ me in
Why you pullin’ me back
Pullin’ me in
Just like gravity
Gravity

I know I betrayed but I’m made to
Ignore the universe when I see you
Cause every night the stars will shine
Verging into U-turns times

Anythin’ that they can just to change my mind
When I pass your road I can’t help rewind
What is wrong with me?
All that I wanna be is

Through with you
And I know that deep down I’m callin’ time on you
On you
On you

Every time I’m ready to leave
Always seem to be
Pullin’ in the wrong direction
Divin’ in with no protection
Man, you can’t keep steerin’ me wrong

Oh gravity
Pullin’ me back
Pullin’ me in
Why you pullin’ me back
Pullin’ me in
Just like gravity
Gravity
Stop pulling me
Gravity

Be quiet, let me leave, let me go
Don’t say another word
Cause with every sound
You’re pullin’ me down

Baby,
You got a hold on me
Like gravity

Yeah
Yeah
Gravity

Every time I’m ready to leave
Always seem to be
Pullin’ in the wrong direction
Divin’ in with no protection
Man, you can’t keep steerin’ me wrong

Oh gravity
Pullin’ me back
Pullin’ me in
Why you pullin’ me back
Pullin’ me in
Just like gravity
Gravity

Gravity, yeah

Gravity

Grenade

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all
But you never give
Should've known you was trouble
From the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open
Why were they open?

[Bridge]
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand
Is

[Chorus]
I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh ho,
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "Hey" when you get back to where you're from
Bad woman, bad woman
That's just what you are
Yeah, you smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

[Bridge]
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand
Is

[Chorus]
I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh ho,
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
You'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
Cause you never ever ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on the blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes I would die for ya baby
But you won't do the same
No, you won't do the same
Oh, you never do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you'd never do the same
Ohh, no no no

unfriend You

I really thought you were the one
It was over before it begun
It's so hard for me to walk away
But I know I can't stay

You're beautiful and crazy too
Baby, that's why I fell into you
Even though you would pretend to be
You were never with me

So it's over, yeah we're through, so I'mma unfriend you
You're the best I ever knew, so I will unfriend you
'Cause I should have known, right from the start
I'm deleting you right from my heart
Now it's over, my last move is to unfriend you

I thought in time that you could change
Time and love would heal the pain
lyricsalls.blogspot.com
I didn't want this day to come
Now all I feel is numb

So it's over, yeah we're through, so I'mma unfriend you
You're the best I ever knew, so I will unfriend you
'Cause I should have known, right from the start
I'm deleting you right from my heart
Now it's over, my last move is to unfriend you

You come on to anybody
Everybody all the time
You give up to anybody
What I thought was only mine

So it's over, yeah we're through, so I'mma unfriend you
You're the best I ever knew, so I will unfriend you
'Cause I should have known, right from the start
That you didn't have a human heart
Now it's over, my last move is to unfriend you

So I'mma unfriend you
So I'mma unfriend you

Broken string

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before


Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

Ooooh...

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking 'round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Oooh, oooh...

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that their goal
Is to keep me from falling

Hey, yeah!
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/jesse_mccartney/bleeding_love.html ]
But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the pain
That I keep all closed in
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Slippin away

I don’t want you to go even if you’re tellin’ me
You’ve gotten over me girl
Cuz lately I realized without you
I can’t live another day

So do we try to make this work, or do we part ways?
Cuz as much as it hurts, what we have’s worth all the pain flowing through the blood in my veins
And it’s still not enough, feel the melody of love through the beat of my heart
We can never be apart, from the lands to the seas, to the stars, wherever you are

Girl just hear me out, cuz I got somethin’ to say
You hear me callin’ but still walkin’ away
This pain inside just won’t go away
Babe I can’t watch you slippin’ away

Dark Man X, I’m slipping
Grip on my heart, tapped out from submission
Better provision is what her heart’s wishing
But she don’t seem to understand my position
I admit, I don’t have what it takes
To serve and provide what she wants on her plate
So I put her in place, then I’m closing the gates
Locking the chains, no intention to wait, wait

Should’ve treated you better
Had I known from the start
There’d be distance between us
I would have kept us from growin’ apart
And I apologize
I’d do whatever that it takes girl
If I can keep you from goin’ away

Girl just hear me out, cuz I got somethin’ to say
You hear me callin’ but still walkin’ away
This pain inside just won’t go away
Babe I can’t watch you slippin’ away

(Eddie harmonizes) Girl did you really get over me
(Eddie harmonizes) I won’t find another ‘nother
(Eddie harmonizes) Cuz I need you here close to me,
(Eddie harmonizes) My one and only lover lover
(Eddie harmonizes) What I gotta do for you to stay
(Eddie harmonizes) My heart beats for you night and day
(Eddie harmonizes) Fallen astray the day you’ve gone away, girl

Girl just hear me out, cuz I got somethin’ to say
You hear me callin’ but still walkin’ away
This pain inside just won’t go away
Babe I can’t watch you slippin’ away

Girl did you really get over me
I won’t find another ‘nother
Cuz I need you here close to me,
My one and only lover lover

I don’t want you to go even if you’re tellin’ me
You’ve gotten over me girl

The one that got away

Summer after high school when we first met
We make up in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
like we had a clue
Never plan that one day
I'd be losing you

And in another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
Its time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse

And in another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]
The one that got away

[Bridge:]
All these money can't buy me a time machine (Nooooo)
Can't replace you with a million rings (Nooooo)
I shoulda told you what you meant to me (Woooooow)
Cause now I pay the price

And in another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

DOMINO

I'm feeling sexy and free
Like glitter's raining on me
You're like a shot of pure gold
I think I'm 'bout to explode

I can taste the tension like a cloud of smoke in the air
Now I'm breathing like I'm running cause you're taking me there
Don't you know...you spin me out of control

Ooh ooh ooh ooh
We can do this all night
Turn this club, skin tight
Baby come on
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Pull me like a bass drum
Sparkin' up a rhythm
Baby, come on!
Ooh ooh ooh ooh

Rock my world into the sunlight
Make this dream the best I've ever known
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Every second is a highlight
When we touch don't ever let me go
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

You got me losing my mind
My heart beats out of time
I'm seeing Hollywood stars
You stroke me like a guitar

I can taste the tension like a cloud of smoke in the air
Now I'm breathing like I'm running cause you're taking me there
Don't you know...you spin me out of control

Ooh ooh ooh ooh
We can do this all night
Turn this club, skin tight
Baby come on
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Pull me like a bass drum
Sparkin' up a rhythm
Baby, come on!
Ooh ooh ooh ooh

Rock my world into the sunlight
Make this dream the best I've ever known
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Every second is a highlight
When we touch don't ever let me go
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Ooh baby baby got me feeling so right
Ooh baby baby dancing in the moonlight
Ooh baby baby got me feeling so right
Ooh baby baby dancing in the moonlight
Ooh baby baby got me feeling so right
Ooh baby baby dancing in the moonlight

Rock my world into the sunlight
Make this dream the best I've ever known
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Every second is a highlight
When we touch don't ever let me go
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Not just You

Darling, I know your heart’s seen better times
I know our songs had better rhymes
Before today
Darling, I guess I made the wrong mistakes
I understand if you need your space
Please take your time

Before you go away you need to realize

Baby, it’s not just you
You know it hurts me too
Watching you leave
With tears on your sleeve
Notice that mine aren’t exactly dry
Baby, it’s not just you
That’s hurting
It’s me too

I’m sorry
I wasn’t there to catch the fall
I didn’t hear you when you’ve called

All of those nights
Please don’t forget the good days with me
I can make back the heart aching beat
When it gets dark and it’s hard to see
I’ll turn on the lights

Before you go away you need to realize

Baby, it’s not just you
You know it hurts me too
Watching you leave
With tears on your sleeve
Notice that mine aren’t exactly dry
Baby, it’s not just you
That’s hurting
It’s me too
It’s me too

just so you know

I shouldn't love you but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]

CRAZIER

I’ve never gone with the wind, just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til you open the door, there’s so much more
I’ve never seen it before
I was trying to fly but I couldn’t find my wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I’m falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn’t see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe.

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I’m falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier oh

Baby you showed me what livin’ is for
I don’t wanna hide anymore

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I’m falling and I’m lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier crazier crazier

Minggu, 20 November 2011

eeeemmmmm...

PENGEN JADI FREEZER..DINGIN, BEKU, MEMATIKAN! aarrgghh kesel!

Right Here Waiting

Oceans apart day after day and I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line but it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never how can we say forever

* Wherever you go whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times that I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears but I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby you've got me goin' crazy

[Repeat *]

I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby you've got me goin' crazy

[Repeat *]

Sabtu, 19 November 2011

지금처럼

괜찮아질 거라고 난
잠시뿐 일거라고 난
시간이 지나면 무뎌질 거라고
그렇게 믿고 난 살아왔는데

가끔은 서툰 표현에
그대를 아프게 했던
나의 그 모습들 이제는 조금씩
달라질 거라 약속해요
차갑던 밤도 외롭던 밤도
언제나 내 곁에 있었는데
그댄 어디에

그대만 바라볼 수 있도록
그대만 사랑할 수 있도록
내 맘이 오직 너에게 오직 널 향해
뛰고 있는걸 숨을 쉬는걸
나를 바라본다면 그대만 나를 사랑한다면
이 세상 무엇과도 널 바꿀 수 없어
지금 이렇게 내 품에 있어줘

언제나 그렇게만 그렇게만 있어줘
이렇게 사랑이라 사랑이라 말하고
언제나 그렇게만 그렇게만 웃어줘
이렇게 행복이라 행복이라 말하고

차갑던 밤도 외롭던 밤도 언제나
내 곁에 있었는데 그댄 어디에

그대만 바라볼 수 있도록
그대만 사랑할 수 있도록
내 맘이 오직 너에게 오직 널 향해
뛰고 있는걸 숨을 쉬는걸
나를 바라본다면 그대만 나를 사랑한다면
이 세상 무엇과도 널 바꿀 수 없어
지금 이렇게 내 품에 있어줘

때론 힘들고 가끔씩 지칠 땐
눈물 흘리며 떠올리던 네 모습
이제야 알아요
내게 보여준 사랑을

나를 바라본다면 그대만 나를 사랑한다면
이 세상 무엇과도 널 바꿀 수 없어
지금 이렇게 내 품에 있어줘
이제는 그대를 내가 더 그대를
~ 언제나 지금처럼

it seems like a nostalgia...

did you know?! suddenly, remembering something that we passed it so amazing!
lately i realize that i missing you..i miss all about you..
i miss my "fish", no! it's not about i wanna him back..
i just wanna be a friend with him, actually :)

agak miris kalo sekarang kita diem2an..
yaa, setidaknya dulu kita pernah ngejalanin hubungan yang indaaaahh banget..walaupun ga indah2 banget juga sih -__-
but, i'm still wanna be pieces of him :>
gw ga mau munafik dan bohong kalo gw suka kesel kalo baca tweet dia buat cewe-yang-ga-harus-gw-sebut-namanya itu..
gw belum rela aja ada yang "replaced me" hmmm..yeah i know i'm too much egoist! tapi yaa itu yang gw rasain..

kadang..kalo lagi iseng ga ada kerjaan..
buka2 facebook, dan tanpa sadar gw KEPO semua account social network dia hahhaa..
kalo buka twitter dia, yang bisa gw liat cuma mention2an dia sama "cewek" itu..
dan kalo buka facebook..tanpa sadar gw ketik namanya di kotak "search" abis itu gw arahin mouse di kotak "see friendship"..daaann disanalaah semuanya kebuka lagi!
semua yang kita laluin bareng2..kebuka lagi..bukti otentik kalo kita memang pernah bilang "good night, i love you", and actually we are really ever felt that freaking love before, we've care each other..and till we finally forget each other..

hahahaha..lucu sih..
disana ternyata masih ada wall2 dan semua status update yg pernah ada kaitannya sm gw dan dia..
dari mulai 1 tahun lalu kita masih kenal2 biasa, dan YM-an absurd, atau sharing about my favourite horor movie..atau dia cerita tentang SPDCnya..
sampe pas gw udah mulai "menyukai" nya diam-diam..dan mulai memberikan "special wall" ke dia dengan kata2 penuh makna dan perhatian..

dan...
letak sedihnya adalah...
saat gw mulai menemukan wall2 dimana kata2 kita mulai berubah menjadi..
me : "kamu ilaaaaangg :"(((("
him : "ada kok ga kemana2, bentar lagi selesai ya, yeeaaah :D"
me : "yeeaaayy! bener ya bentar lg? asik! i', freaking miss you, bang ganteng :p"

and one month later....

him : "sayang sayang inget ya jaga kondisinya, bentar lagi unjuk gelar :*"
me : "mkasih sayang...kmu juga ya. semangat fieldtrip nya. doain aku ya syg :) i wanna give you my best. i love you my amazing boy :*"

and when i get mad with him....

him : "hoii hoiii kok sunyi yah?? helloo! hello! i can't hear you! anybody home? hmm"
me : "nobodys home...orangnya ngambek -___-"

and when i doin my first traditonal dance show...

him : "ayo sayang! Berikan yg terbaik! Kuasai ya si balai santika. Hii"
me : "thanks for your support, sweet :) i'll do my best and you too, okay :)) take care and enjoy your trip. i love you :*"

and another wall...

him : "ahhhh.. say ada yg mau ninggalin ak 1 bulan lebih nih.. gimana ya rasanya ditinggalin lama gitu.. hha semangat sayang!! gpp, just believe that we can pass it, make some time warp?! lol"
me : "hahaha..kasian yg mau d tinggal..pasti sedih, atau ngga sedih sama sekali ?
just pray for me ya.."
him : "yah gmna gk sedih, lama gitu gk ktemu.. tp gk akan krasa kok.. soalnya ak juga ada PKL 1 bulan hhe.. oke selalu lah.. bisaa say bisaaa !!"
me : "nah, kan..kamu juga ninggalin aku PKL :'(
jangan nakal ya..awas aja pacaran sama ikan disana :'(
heehehe, bisaa dong pasti :*"
him : "asiiikk asiik 1 bulan penuh pacaran sama ikan lele dan patin.. diperhatiin, di bersihin, di ksh makan tiap hari, trus di buat hamil dan beranak *lohh hahaha.. aws ya klo cemburu sama ikan2 hha ;p"
me : "lah, ini aja pacarnya yang imut-imut ini gapernah diperhatiin, dikasih makan, kok malah romantisnya sama ikan ? kamu jahaaat derri ! aku ga nyangka T___T hahaha
yah, aku cemburuan nih :"( :p"
him : "ahhh kan kepancing.. bisa2nya cemburu sama ikan!! wee ;p .. hahahahaa.. itu tugas saya sebagai orang perikanan *asiik dah"
me : "aku cemburunya ga mandang jenis...kalokamu khilaf, bisa aja ikan juga dipacarin -__- woooow :OO
hahahaha
ciieee anak perikanan..pantes kamu berhasil memancing hatiku :")"

when his birthday...

me : "ciieee udah tua :p traktir aku ya...!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BOY !!! all greatest for you :) baby,i love youuuu...
:*
♥ ♥ ♥"
him : "wowww makasih sayang!! PP nya bagus euy hahaaa"
me : "Sama-sama, sayangkuu :)
(•'⌣'•)˘ε˘•)"

when i miss him...

me : "I miss you so badly :'("
him : "jumat kesini kan?? ak msih d nangor say.."
me : "Gajadi..mungkin hari minggu." (a lil bit mad with him hahaha)
him : "woww asik besok ketemuu hahaa :)"
me : "see yaa there, baby :)"

and when we laugh together...

him : "kok tante yg ini cantik yaa??"
me : "Iya cantik..dari dulu kok ! Ga kyk kamu, mukanya serem kyk hantu..liat aja tuh mukanya abstrak gitu..hiii sereeemm...atuuuuttt mamaaaa o_O"
him : "siap siapp ak datengin ke kosan yaa.. hii hii hii.. setan ronda nih! waspadalah waspadalahh"
me : "Kalo kamu hantu, aku rela kok d gentayangin sm kamu..suer deh..ane zuzur :* hahahaa"
him : "itu udah pernah sayang haha.. yg laen apa zz.. garing ahh.. maen sama lele aj ah klo gitu :p"
me : "Seeeraaaahhh deehh! Pacarin tuh lele ! Huh (¬,¬) *ceritanya ngambek nih!* :p"
him : "idiih ogah dah pacaran sama lele. yang ada di patil mulu hha. pgnnya pacaran sama nicole nya KARA aja hha"
me : "Bodo amat ! Timpuk nih ! (¯▿▿▿▿▿▿▿▿¯)"

another...

me : "kok mendadak ilang ? aneh ya..."
him : "ilang gmna? maap say hape ak lg dpke tlp2an sama ce nya haha.. pke smart jg."
me : "iya, ilang..tiba" ilang dr fb, ngajak ym juga tp ilang..."
him : "koneksi labil haha. hape jg dpke tmen ak tlpon2an nih say."
me : "haaaa..labil :(
yaudah, aku mau tidur ya...
kamu juga tidur ! biasanya kan kamu yg jam segini udah tidur..
ini fb aku biarin aja aktif..
good night dear, have a great bed rest..
:*"
him : "tidur ya sayang! sleep well ya :)"

we just laugh and support each other...

him : "hoi sayang semangat ya belajarnya! gk ganggu dlu deh hehe"
me : "ihiiiy..baik banget. tapi mendadak males deh hahahaha :p"
him : "loh knpa? asik dpt info dari angga ada korea baru lol"
me : "hah ? apa? baru ? BEG (Brown Eyed Girl) ???? -____- itu udah lama..payah. kemana aja ? hah ? huuuu :p"
him : "ya maklum say, kan baru ini juga. eh subhanalloh! km potong rambut ya? cantik euy! *klo geer dijitak nih!"
me : "hahaha..aku kasih tau yg lain deh ya ntr..masih baaanyaaaak banget tauuu :p
hah ? hahhaa iya :p sebenernya udh dr wkt kamu ksini itu, cuma sengaja aku tutupin kan rambutnya biar ga diliat. malu :p"
him : "haha, pantesan wktu senin k kosan, rambut km pke handuk trus.. kok malu sih?"
me : "hahaha..maluu maluuu -__- ini aja rambutnya d iket terus kalo keluar..haha
besok botakin aaahh ~~~"
him : "bahahaha botakin! tuyul ada tuyul!"
me : "hahahahha...syiiiaaaaaaaaalll -_______________-
td d blang cantik, sekarang d bilang tuyul. labil ! :p"
him : "lah yg bilang mw dibotakin siapa? haha jd yg labil siapa nih?"
me : "yailaaah...eyke lagi yg dibilang labil..
hampuuun deh...iya mas, aku yg labil..gajadi botak deh -..-
kok ga tidur sih?"
him : "blom mau, msh pd idup nih haha"
me : "oohh..yaudaaah ~"
him : "kmu emang ud blajarnya?"
me : "belum..
ini lg ngurusin iPod, masa game sama semua aplikasinya jd gabisa d buka gara" aku sotoy banget update OS sendiri...haaaa mamaaaa T_____T"
him : "haha, sok ide nih. jd gmn skrg say? gk bs bgt dpke aplikasi2nya?"
me : "heeh..bukannya kasian malah d katain -__-
iya, gamau dibuka semua aplikasinya...haaaa, dimarahin deh nih T___T"
him : "haha iya iyaa.. wah siap2 nih ntar pas plg k rumah haha.. say ak tdur ya? bru inget jam 5pagi ada panen indukan.. biar ada tenaga.. dluan ya? sleep well brrti! good night :)"
me : "hahaha..
iya iya..
good night ;)"

the last wall on 13 july 2011..
in that time we just broke up our relationship..kita sepakat putus baik2 karena GUE-YANG-LABIL..bukan karena gw aja yg salah..gw labil yaa karna dia. HE NEVER HAVE MUCH TIME FOR ME AND I'M JUST BE A SECOND OPTION FOR HIM...itu sakit sekali..makanya gw memutuskan untuk menyudahi hubungan kita yang mulai udah agak "hambar" waktu itu..gw bertekad untuk melupakan dia, menjalani hidup baru dan berbahagia tanpa dia..but, kenyataan berkata lain..
i have to say that I CAN'T LET MYSELF HAPPY WITHOUT HIM..that's why we met each other lagi setelah beberapa minggu kita broke up..kita ngobrol bareng2, ngomong semua yg kita rasain dan gw bilang semua hal yang gw ga suka dari dia...adn yeah! it's just about MISSUNDERSTANDING..dan akhirnya kita sepakat untuk mulai "care each other" lagi..mulai berbagi kasih sayang lagi dengan hubungan yang sempat "hancur" beberapa minggu dulu...

pada saat itu...kita mulai memperbaik hubungan kita yang memang banyak keluhannya..
saat berjalan 5 bulan..
tepatnya bulan agustug..
waktu itu gw baru aja selesai buka puasa bersama bareng temen2 SMA..gw smsan sm dia setelah gw smp rumah..
disanalah kita bertengkar hebat untuk pertama kalinya...

sms...

me : "kamu masih aja ngerokok ya?"
him : "iya..kalo pas ada temen2 PKL aja say..hehehe ga sering kok"
me : "kamu ngerokok krn temen2 PKL kamu? kalo kamu temenan sm org2 ngerokok trus km ikutan ngeroko, brrti kalo kamu temenan sm maling, kamu jd maling jg dong?! kasian ya, ga punya prinsip!"
him : "kok kamu ngomongnya gitu sih?? (and blablablablabla)" gw ga mau inget omongan dia yg ngebentak2 gw..I HATE THAT SENTENCE SO MUCH!!!!
me : "santai aja dong ngomongnya..aku kan cuma bilangin yg baik buat kamu..kalo ga mau didengerin juga gpp, kan kamu yang ngejalanin hidup kamu.."

yaah, pokoknya gitu deh..kita beranteng karena dai itu tiba2 jd perokok..walaupun masih perokok pasif..
gw bukannya mau sok2an ngelarang2 dia ngerokok atau apa lah..gw juga bukan tipe cewe yg suka nge-Doktrin pacar..
cuma, yg jd masalah itu...dia sebelumnya bukan perokok dan dia itu punya sakit sinus..ga baik banget buat kesehatan dia..
no! i can't let him broke his body! makanya gw berani ngomong agak kasar sm dia dan gw tau banget kok kalo omongan gw ke dia emang agak keterlaluan..tapi itu karena gw sayang sm dia..yaaa, tapi dia malah2 gitu..
dan satu hal yang dia ga tau..gw paling ga bisa dibentak2 seperti itu..
makanya..since that time i lose my feel with him..
semua kenangan yg pernah gw dan dia jalanin mendadak hilang..gw hilang rasa buat dia! kecewa, sedih, marah..dan cuma ada satu hal yang mau gw lakuin saat itu..PERGI JAUH DARI DIA DAN MENGHILANGKAN DIA DAI HIDUP GW..i think you have to care yours deh..i won't care with you anymore!
makanya gw menghilang..
dan tiba2 hubungan kita benar2 menghilang...sampai detik ini :>

satu hal yg ga pernah gw pikirin dari saat itu..
kalu ternyata, hal yang hilang pun bisa ditemukan kembali..
dan you know what?! i've just found something lose...gw menemukan kembali hal2 yang hilang saat dimana dia "membentak" gw..gw menemukan kembali kenangan2 yang sengaja gw buang dulu..
gw temukan kembali perasaan perduli saat gw yakin kalo gw tidak ingin lagi perduli dengan dia..
gw temukan semuanya saat ini..
saat gw tau, gw masih perduli sama dia..

yaaa..walaupun keperdulian ini bukan keperdulian yang sama seperti dulu..
gw akuin, kalo perasaan, dan segalanya udah berubah..
gw ga lagi sayang sebagaimananya gw dulu ke dia.
gw ga lagi perduli sebesar keperdulian gw terhadap dia dulu.
sekarang..yg gw rasain hanya...
rindu yang amat sangat dalam..

gw sadar hubungan kita udah berlalu dan gw telah membiarkannya berlalu terlalu lama..
gw telah membiarkan dirinya sendirian menunggu kepastian gw dan sampai akhirnya gw biarkan dia usang dimakan waktu saat menunggu gw kembali..karena sebenarnya gw tidak pernah berniat untuk kembali pada saat itu..hanya tidak ingin berkata2 dan memberi hal buruk untuk dia..makanya gw biarkan dia mengambil keputusan..apakah dia ingin terus bertahan, atau moving on without me..
dan, bagusnya...dia memilih untuk bertahan dan terus berjalan tanpa gw..
gw bahagia saat itu. saat gw tau dia mulai bahagia tanpa gw..

merasa bersalah?
YA! PASTI! gw sangat merasa bersalah..jangan pikir saat gw diem dulu, gw ga mikirin dia..hanya saja, rasa perduli gw terkalahkan dengan gengsi :>

yang jelas..tidak ada satu kali pun aku berkata bahwa aku menyesal telah melepas mu..
kamu itu memang yang terindah dari yang paling indah yang pernah aku miliki..tapi kamu berhak mencari hal terindah dibanding aku :'>
setidaknya, kita pernah bahagia bersama..aku dan kamu pernah menjadi "kita" dan kamu, pernah menjadi bagian dari "aku"...
sekarang aku mulai menemukan kembali hal2 yang pernah hilang..mungkin aku naif..kamu boleh menyebutkan kata2 buruk apa saja untuk aku disini yang udah jelas2 sia2in kamu gitu aja..tapi kamu harus tau, aku ga se-Naif itu kok..aku tetep perduli..
aku ga membenci, apa lagi mendendam..aku menyayangi..menyayangi kamu seperti seharusnya aku..
walaupun sekarang aku mulai menemukan hal2 itu lagi, tapi engga ada 1 dari doa ku untuk membuat mu kembali..untuk ku, cukup kamu sedih karena aku 2 kali..aku engga akan mau ada yang ke-3 kali atau 4, 5, dan seterusnya..
aku engga tau..apa sekarang aku dosa atau apa lah itu..
karena sekarang aku rindu..aku merindukan mu..
rindu kamu yang dulu dan sekarang..kamu ga berubah..kamu sama..itu yang aku rindukan.
aku rindu semua tentang kamu..
kamu bagaimana? baik kah? aku harap kamu udah dapet yang terbaik sekarang..
aku tau, kita udah sama-sama jatuh cinta sama orang lain..
sekarang, aku cuma mau kita tetep perduli satu sama lain..
aku dukung semua yang kamu lakuin..apa pun itu.
kamu dan aku...harus bahagia dengan jalannya masing2 ya :>

"you are the greatest memorise i ever had"

Kamis, 10 November 2011

hey..

kita jangan keseringan salah paham gini dong..
sebenernya nothings wrong between us kan ya??
ga ada yg marah, ngambek, atau apa kok..
aku ga kenapa2 dan ga pernah anggep kamu kenapa2 juga sm aku..
kamu kan tau aku ga pernah bisa marah..
ga nyaman sih makin lama aku makin ngerasa jd "stranger" buat kamu..
tapi aku tau kok kamu masih anggep aku temen kamu..
kita kan temen..temen banget kan ya..
ga ada loh nantinya kita akan bilang "iya, itu mantan temen gw.."
ga ada "mantan" atau "bekas" untuk kata "teman"..

i love you guys :)))

Selasa, 01 November 2011

Safe

Hard to find a way to get through
It's a tragedy
Pulling at me like the stars do
You're like gravity
Even if the wind blows
It makes it hard to believe

How ya gonna love
How ya gonna feel
How you gonna live your life like the dream you have is real
And If you lost your way
I will keep you safe
We'll open up all the world inside
I see it come alive tonight
I will keep you safe

Doesn't even matter to you
To see what I can see
I'm crawling on the floor to reach you
I'm a wreck you see
When you're far from home now
Makes it hard to believe

So how ya gonna love
How ya gonna feel
How you gonna live your life like the dream you have is real
If you've lost your way
I will keep you safe
Well open up all your world inside
Til you come alive tonight
I will keep you safe

We all fall down
We all feel down
Cus rainy days and summer highs
The more we pray the more we feel alive

How ya gonna love
How ya gonna feel
How you gonna live your life like the dream you have is real
How ya gonna love
How ya gonna feel
How you gonna live your life like the dream you have is real

If you've lost your way
I will keep you safe
Well open up all your world inside
So you come alive tonight
I will keep you safe

Well I will keep you safe
I will keep you safe

Wish You Were Here

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all

Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it

[refrain]
And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

[refrain]
All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

[bridge]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here

Lighthouse

This kind of love Is more than a lifeline
For a man as weak as me Who has no self belief

This kind of love Is more than amazing
For a man who lost his way Who thought it was too late

How did the sea
How did the sea
How did the sea get so rough
I would’ve drowned,I would’ve drowned
If you hadn’t given me your love

You’re the light in the dark
You’re the seat in the park
You’re the lighthouse
You’re the lighthouse
That I need
You’re the key to the door
You’re the Port in the Storm
And I need to find a shore When I can’t swim anymore
You always guide me back to solid ground
You’re my lighthouse

This kind of love Is more than a feeling
For a man who rarely tried, I get all choked up each time
You say you love me
You could’ve walked away
Could’ve give my problems back
Could’ve left
You took the chance

How did the waves
How did the waves
How did the waves get so high
I would’ve died
I would’ve died
If you hadn’t loved me just in time

You’re the light in the dark
You’re the seat in the park
You’re the lighthouse
You’re the lighthouse
That I need
You’re the key to the door
You’re the Port in the Storm
When I need to find a shore
Cos I can’t swim anymore
You always guide me back to solid ground
You’re my lighthouse

Yeah, I owe it all to you everything I have right now
I owe it all to you everything I didn’t have you found Everytime take me back to you

You’re the light in the dark
You’re the seat in the park
You’re the lighthouse
You’re the lighthouse
that I need
You’re the key to the door
You’re the Port in the Storm
And I need to find the shore
Cos I can’t swim anymore
You always guide me back to solid ground
You’re my lighthouse