westlife - how does it feel .

[Shane:]
True lovers never take it slowly
When they've found the one and only
Nothing can replace this feeling
Knowing someone loves you

It's painted with the pain and glory
Taking from a known sad story
Laying out my life before me
Fearing the unknown

Sharing never showed me much appeal
And now I'm only praying it's for real

[All:]
So how does it feel
When I hold you in my arms
And you're lying next to me
Never wanting you to leave
Until I'll tell you how it feels
To be cradled like my dreams
And to know that you love me
No more wasting time in asking other people
How does it feel

[Shane:]
How does it feel

[Bryan:]
Forever taken you for granted
You give me everything I wanted
I'm so afraid that I might lose you
But time will let us see
If everything is real I'm feeling
Well maybe we've been only dreaming
And if it's gonna die to save it
Cos baby I believe

Nothing in the world could make it right
Cos baby loving you brings me to life

[All:]
And how does it feel
When I hold you in my arms
And you're lying next to me
Never wanting you to leave
Until I'll tell you how it feels
To be cradled like my dreams
And to know that you love me
No more wasting time in asking other people
How does it feel

[Bryan:]
Woah, woah, woah

[Shane:]
Nothing in the world could feel this right
Cos baby you're the best thing in my life

[All:]
How does it feel
When I hold you in my arms
And you're lying next to me
Never wanting you to leave
Until I'll tell you how it feels
To be cradled like my dreams
And to know that you love me
No more wasting time in asking other people

[Shane:]
How does it feel

westlife - loneliness knows me by name .

Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, hwy was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name

Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thought in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me
Why, hwy was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name

Life is more and that would be the vacant space
The cried out tears and a never ending maze
I have found what only loneliness provides
A strength within knowing I will find

endah n resha - when you love someone :"(

rekomendasi dr temen gw pas gw lg bingung"nya ngadepin perasaan gw k org yg gw suka (derri) , katanya nih lagu gw bgt . pas gw denger , lah .. gw langsung nangis -,-" zz . tp bagus lagunya !! 10 jempol !!horeee \m/




I love you but it's not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever
But you're still in my dream
And I can't stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don't ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true...

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say... “hello”
And I can't stand to wait your love is coming to my life
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don't ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true...

And I never thought that I'm so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
But when love comes it can't be wrong
Don't ever give up just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way....
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don't ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true...

love . love . love -,-"

ini deh nih dampaknya dr jatuh cinta .
tiba" jd suka lagu" yg ada hubungannya ama CINTAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!
kata" jd frontal menyinggung tentang hati atw org yg lg d cintain !
tidur jd mendadak gak nyenyak .
pikiran jd mendadak d bajak ama org yg d cintai itu .
yah , pkknya dampak dr jatuh cinta menurut gw banyak gak enaknya lah ...
aaaahh ! males -,-"

westlife - what becomes of the broken hearted .

As I walk this land of broken dreams
I have visions of many things
But happiness is just an illusion
Filled with sadness and confusion

What becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Maybe

The roots of love grow all around
But for me they come a tumbling down
Every day heartaches grow a little stronger
I can't stand this pain much longer
I walk in shadows searching for light
Cold and alone no comfort in sight
Hoping and praying for someone who cares
Always moving and going nowhere

What becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Help me, please

I'm searching though I don't succeed
For someone’s love there's a growing need
All is lost there's no place for beginning
All that's left is an unhappy ending

Now what becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I'll be searching everywhere
Just to find someone to care
I'll be looking every day
I know I'm gonna find a way
Nothings going to stop me now
I'll find a way somehow

What becomes of the broken hearted
Who had love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind, maybe
Oh yeah
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who had love that's now departed
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who had love that's now departed
What becomes of the broken hearted

westlfe - why do i love you :)

Suddenly she’s
Leaving
Suddenly the
Promise of love has gone
Suddenly
Breathing seems so hard to do

Carefully you
Planned it
I got to know just
A minute to late, oh girl
now I understand it
All the times we
Made love together
Baby you were thinking of him

Why do I love you
Don’t even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should’ve told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Ain’t gonna show no
Weakness
I’m gonna smile
And tell the whole world I’m fine
I’m gonna keep my senses
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I’ll be crying for you

Why do I love you
Don’t even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should’ve told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Can’t go back
Can’t erase
Baby your smiling face oh no
I can think of nothing else but you
Suddenly

Why do I love you
Don’t even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should’ve told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

my the best result :)

yaaaappp !!!
x ini gw bener" ngerasa puas sm apa yg gw kerjain !
gw puas sm usaha gw !
gw puas sm semua kemampuan gw !
harap" cemas nunggu nilai razgovor yg 4 sls itu yg jd susah krn dosennya d ganti , yg gw udh pesimis bakalan dpt jelek ... kalo dpt C aja gw udh sujud sukur...
tapiiiiiiiiii....................
kemarin , nilai razgovor itu keluar juga dan gw......................................................................................................................................DAPET NILAI YG THE BEST BANGET !!! I GET POINT "A" !!! YAAAAPPP !! THE PERFECT POINT !!!
i knew i could get the best result !! thank's god :))

my BEST gadget :))

d posting ini gw mau memperkenalkan 3 gadget kesayangan gw ! the best gadget i ever had !hahahhaa....

PERTAMA !!
my phone VIVAZ :)
hp ini gw beli sendiri pake uang tabungan gw stelah bbrapa bulan hp corby gw ilang .. i love this stuff :))



(my vivaz-red)


KEDUA !!
my smartphone BLACKBERRY gemini :) hp ini mamake yg beliin ,, baiknyaa mamake...thank's mom :)) yaa , sbagaimana gunanya smartphone BB , gw gunain nih hp cm bwt internetan ...hehehe



(my BlackBerry gemini-black)


KETIGA !!
notebook kesayangan gw yg d beliin mamake abis gw SNMPTN !!! walaupun sering rusak semenjak gw pake internet kabel d kosan , yaaa bayangin aja , setiap bulan pasti windowsnya eror...tp , gw sayaangg bgt nih notebook ! sering ada yg blg , "udg ganti aja!" tp gw gamau .hehehe..susah seneng udh sama" terus siihh..wehehehe :p



(my best notebook i ever had)


yaaapp..itulah ketiga gadget kesayangan gw !!

first time i meet him "derri dwima" :))

Gak panjang yg mau gw tulis d posting ini ..
Gw cm mau meluapkan rasa bahagia gw yg cukup banyak tentang pertemuan gw sm seseorang yg bernama "derri dwima"..
dia itu tmn gw , eh .. Apa yaa , hmm .. Okee , sebut aja dy tmn gw lah :)
Gw knal dy dr situs jejaring soaial "facebook" ,
dy satu kampus sm gw , cm beda jurusan aja sih .
Gw sastra , dy perikanan ..
daann ,, yg lbh aneh lg , slama kita kenal dr fb itu , kita blm pernah ketemu sekali pun !!
Hmmm , klo gw sh pengen bgt ktmu dy , tp waktunya aja yg sllu gak tepat :(
Dan , smp akhirnya ,, kmrn pas gw latihan bwt ospek universitas , ada SPDC gt lg latihan jg ,
Dan kebetulan jg , tmpt latihannya deketan ..
Mata gw terus tertuju k arah org" yg lg latihan spdc ,
d depan pandangan gw , pas bgt ada sekumpulan anak spdc yg lg mainin terompet gt.
Tb" pandangan gw tertuju sm 1 org cowo ,
Gtw knp ,, gw ngerasa klo gw knal sm org itu..
Yeeaaah , smp beberapa menit gw perhatiin org itu !
Akhirnya dy menolehkan pandangannya k arah gw ,,
dy liat gw jg , pandanganny sm sprti gw , matanya seperti berbicara "siapa yaa,,kok kyk kenal"
Gw pun meyakinkan pandangan dy , dan seketika gw melambaikan tangan dan tersenyum mengisyaratkan "haii derri , ini gw fitry"
Dan dy pun membalas lambaian tangan serta senyuman gw ..
dan mulai saat itu pula , entah kenapa jantung gw berdegup kencang..

Yaaah , yg pasti ..
Gw seneng ktmu dy :)
Heeii you boy , nice to meet you !
It's a good first meeting beetwen us :)
Honestly , I like you for now :))
Hope you too :)
and , hope we will meet again in other time and I'll give you my best smile :)

my LOVE when vacation time :)

liburan sekolah 2008 lalu ,
gw pilih liburan gw k bali , yeah .. tmpat dimana orangtua gw berasal .
sekitar 2 minggu gw disana , liburan dan sekalian nenangin diri setelah beberapa hari sebelumnya gw putus sm pacar gw .
setelah ngerasa tenang , gw pun mutusin bwt balik k jakarta by BUS "safari dharma raya travel" bali-jakarta naik bus ... yaaaa bisa kebayang laah..24 jam penuh d dalem bus yg emg bwt gw nyaman bgt . gw paling suka k bali naik bus d banding naik pesawat . lebih terasa jalan"nya .hahaha..
bwt sampe k jawa , bus pun harus nyebrangin laut yg menghubungkan antara pulau jawa dan bali . gilimanuk-ketapang .hmm..very nice :)
smp d kapal laut , gw pun turun dr bus bwt duduk d dalem kapal .. nunggu kapalnya sls mengantarkan gw dan bus yg gw tumpangi .. duduk d ruang tunggu kapal smbil nntn film jepang yg d play sm sii ahli tivi itu .haha..bengong kyk org bego , krn itu pertama kalinya gw pulang pergi k bali naik bus SENDIRIAN tanpa orangtua gw . oh god , I WAS VERY BRAVE !! :D
duduk sendirian .. nengok kanan-kiri , depan,belakang . berharap kapalnya cpt smp ketapang (nama pelabuhan d jawa) dan gw bs duduk tenang lg tanpa ada rasa terancam krn sendirian d tempat rame kyk gtu .. aaahh , akhirnya kapalnya tiba d ketapang ! yeah , my prayers were answered ! :))
saat gw beranjak dr tempat duduk dan mulai berjalan menuju bus , gw ngerasa ada yg sejak tadi memeperhatikan gw .. woow..i'm afraid ! gw cepetin langkah gw .. dan akhirnya gw smp d tmpat duduk nyaman gw d bus .. aaaahh,,i'm lucky :)

waktunya makan malaamm...
bus berenti bwt ngater semua penumpang mkn mlm d suatu rumah makan yg sedikit mewah ,, yeaah .. utk kesekian kalinya gw duduk sendiri .. saat gw makan , gw liat ada org yg ngeliatin gw dr kejauhan .. oh god !! ITU ORANG YANG TADI PERHATIIN GW D KAPAL LAUT ! oh no -,-" nafsu mkn langsung ilang .. tidaaaakk ! gw langsung kabur k dlm bus dan ninggalin makanan gw . smp gw msk k bus aja tuh org msh ngeliatin gw . ah , ada apa sm otak lo sih . gw annoyed bgt !huh.
bus kembali jalan dan gw tertidur lelap........zzzzzz..

MORNIIIINGGGG WORLD !!!
buka mata ,, ternyata udh pagi aja...
bus berenti lg bwt nganter kita sarapan d sebuah restoran sederhana untuk pagi ini .
yaaa gpp , yg penting perut keisi .hehe..kali ini rombongan dr bus "safari dharma raya travel" yg lain .. gw duduk d depan restoran smbil menghirup udara pagi yg segeeerr bgt . ahh..it's a wonderful life !
gw merhatiin semua org yg kluar dr bus safari yg lain .. and , anyone know ?! ORANG-YANG-DARI-KEMAREN-MERHATIIN-GW-KAYAK-MALING-ITU-TERNYATA-NAIK-BUS-SAFARI-JUGA-HANYA-SAJA-BEDA-BUS-SAMA-ROMBONGAN-GW !! aaaaaa..shit ! gw makin deg-degan dan takut..pantes aja dia bareng mulu ama gw klo berenti makan..tidak !huhu..
pas antri bwt ambil makan , gw bengong (seperti biasanya) , dan tiba" org d dpn gw membuka percakapan ..

org d dpn gw : "eh , duluan aja :)"
gw : "hee?! oh iya..makasi" (APA"AN NIH..INI KAN ORG YG DR KEMAREN NGELIATIN GW!!!ASTAGAA...KETEMU MULU..DAN SEKARANG DIA D DEPAN MUKA GW!!)
org d dpn gw : "koo ngambil nasinya cm dikit ??"
gw : (sambil ambil nasi) "oh..hahaa..iya :)"
org d dpn gw : "emg gak laper ???"
gw : (mulai kesel krn d tanya" terus) "hehehe..ngga koo" (sambil senyum maksa) "duluan yah" (ninggalin tuh org)
org d dpn gw : "ohh..iyaa :)"
gw : (senyum doang)

gw duduk agak jauh dr tempat dmn dia sm tmn"nya duduk...dr jauh dia msh ngeliatin gw tambah sesekali senyum k arah gw .. dan gw baru berfikir sekarang .. "yaa tuhan..GANTENG!!manissnyaaaa" (bego bgt kan ..lelet bgt nyadarnya!ah)
gw kembali duduk d depan restoran sambil ngeliatin bus yg gw tumpangin lg d bersihin .. dan ada beberapa bus dr rombongan lain mulai jalan , dr kejauhan gw liat "org tdk dikenal" itu melambaikan tangan k gw dan tersenyum...dan gw ?! cuma nunduk dan cengar-cengir malu...STUPID ! I KNEW IT !!ahhh...

stelah kejadia d restoran pagi itu , gw langsung kepikiran "org tdk d kenal" itu , dan berbicara dlm hati .. "kalau nnti gw ktmu dia lg..gw anggp dia jodoh gw !!amin"

LUNCH TIME !!
makan terakhir sebelum menginjakan kaki k jakarta .. berhenti d restoran besar namun sederhana..gw pergi k toilet sebelum makan...dan saat gw msk k restoran , ternyataaa..gw ktmu LAGI sm "org tdk d knal" itu!! "oh god..is he my soulmate??" gw beranjak dr meja tmpt gw mkn dan ambil minum .. dan saat gw berbalik , sesosok pria tinggi ada d hadapan gw ... percakapan pun terjadi .

org tdk d knal : "heii..yg td kan ?!hehhe"
gw : "oh..iyaaa..haha yg tadi.."
org tdk d knal : "boleh knalan??"
gw : "oh iya boleh...fitri :)"
org tdk d knal : "WIRA...blh minta nomer hape ?"
gw : "he?! iya iya boleh...(sambil menyebutkan nomer hp gw)"
org tdk d knal : "hmm..makasih ya..oiya , duluan yaa..busnya udh mw jalan...byeee :)" (sambil tersenyum maniisss bgt)
gw : (bengong)

smp d bus , dia sms gw dan kita pun memulai dgn percakapan kecil , sapaan , berkenalan , dan mulai bercerita ..
sedikit tentang dia ..
*namanya Wira Mahiswara , berasal dari Bali asli , hanya saja dia lg kuliah d STAN jakarta .. saat itu dia emg lg libur kuliah dan liburan k bali sekalian pulang k rumah .. dan d perjalanan saat ktmu gw itu , dia lg dlm prjalanan mw balik k jakarta lg bwt nerusia kuliahnya d semester akhir..dia mahasiswa administrasi perpajakan d STAN .yeah..i know he smart ! since first i meet him ! :))* "nice to be your friend wira :D

hmm,,dia punya nama panggilan khusus bwt gw , It's "NURI" .. d ambil dr singkatan nama gw , "nur fitryani" .. hahhaa..

setelah lama kita berkenalan...gw pun kehilangan kabarnya , dan smp pd akhirnya gw balikan sma mantan gw , dan putus lg beberapa bulan kemudian..
dan saat itu , entah knp gw kepikiran dia , dan memutuskan utk menghubunginya lagi..gw sms dia ..

gw : "haii wira :)"

dan gak d bales sm dia...
beberapa hari kemudian , tepatnya 1 hari sebelum gw UAN , dia bls sms gw ..

wira : "iya,,maaf ini siapa ya?"
gw : "nuri..masih inget ?"
wira : "oh iyaaa..NURIII!! apa kabar???"
gw : "baik wira ,, wira gimana??"
..............................
dan obrolan pun terjalin lg...senangnyaaa bisa dpt kabarnya lg :)
tapi ternyata obrolan itu berlangsung lama...kita pun dekat .. dekat .. dan semakin dekat..
dia org pertama yg mengirimkan sms sebelum gw UAN , ksh semangat kecil lewat pesan singkat yg menurut gw sangat berarti..
jd satu"nya org yg perhatian atas apa yg gw lakuin ..
jd org yg nemenin gw d setiap hari gw..
pagi,,siang,,malam..dan itu membuatku....JATUH CINTA padanya :")
oh god...i'm fallin in love with him :(

satu hal yg gw paling inget sm isi sms dia yg mendongengkan tentang bagaimana cara kita bertemu..dongeng itu d berikan saat gw sulit utk tdr pas menjelang UAN ..hahaha..he's so cute :">

kita semakin deket , dan mulai sering jalan bareng..
nonton bioskop , makan , dan banyak hal lainnya..
berbagi cerita , bertengkar , ah .. semuanya kita lakuin bersama..
gw mulai merasa membutuhkannya .. gak bisa gda dia .. mungkin gw mulai tergantung sm dia..
entah salah atau ngga .. dan makin lama gw makin tersiksa sm perasaan gw sendiri ,, krn setelah sekian lama dkt sm dia , gda satu pun status yg dia pastika untk gw .. pacar ? bukan .. temen ? tp deketnya lbh dr tmn..
dan smp pd akhirnya gw duduk berdua sm dia , dan gw blg yg sejujurnya klo gw sayang sm dia ,, and anyone kmow ?? HE SAY , IF HE LOVEs ME TOO !! aaaa...god .. i'm happy..
i know , we've become lovers at the time :)
gda yg lbh bahagia dr saat itu .. tp gak bertahan lama...
1 bln kemudia dia menjauh dr gw krn sesuatu hal...entah lah .. gw jg bingung knp dia kyk gt..
mungkin dia sebenrnya gak syg sm gw , atau apa...yg jelas semenjak saat itu , dia gak percaya perasaan gw k dia..dan bahkan dia gatau apa yg sbrnya ada d hati gw..
gw nangis , sedih , kesel , dia pun gtw ..
gw mulai coba bwt gak perduli .. tp gbs .. susaaahh !!

dan smp pd akhirnya dia dkt sm cewe yg dia pilih..
gw seneng .. yaa , gw ikut seneng ngliat dia bahagia...
tp satu sisi d hati gw sulit bwt terima itu...
gpp , gw tau ini yg terbaik bwt gw dan dia..
berkali" gw coba bwt perbaikin semuanya jg gda artinya , dia jg gak akan menoleh k arah gw lg.. gw gtw siapa yg salah dsini..
gw cm mw ngejalanin hubungan yg sehat .. bnr" kyk org pacaran normal .. dan gw berharap banyak sm dia ,, gw bs ngejalanin hubungan serius sm dia , tp malah kyk gt jdnya..
nyesel ?! yaa gw nyesel..tp bwt apa nyesel trs ?! gak guna !


smp skr , hubungan gw sm dia msh cukup baik .
walau dia udh sangat ACUH sm gw . but , it's oke !
sayang?
iya .. sayang itu masih ada .. tp gak untuk d buka lg .. cukup d tutup rapat" aja , krn gw tau dia gak punya perasaan itu sedikitpun bwt gw sejak dulu..mungkin hanya nafsu yg menguasai...entah..yg jelas..dia pernah membuat gw bangga saat berjalan d sampingnya..

sosok pintar , tinggi , baik , dan penyayang itu pernah ada disini..didalam hati gw paling dalam ..
kapanpun dia mau tersenyum k gw lg , gw siap ksh dia senyuman terbaik gw bwt dia..just for him :))
gak perduli dia udh berbuat apa k gw , yg udh bikin gw sakit , bikin air mata gw menetes banyak , bikin hati gw hancur .. itu bukan masalah bwt gw ..
nyokap jg selalu banyak tanya tentang dia , seperti ,, bagaimana hubungan gw sm dia , apa kabarnya , dia gimana sekarang...dan gw cm bs jawab "kita baik-baik aja :)"

dan semoga , kita emg akan selalu baik" aja dengan apapun status hubungan kita..

"wira tetep yang terbaik buat nuri..walaupan wira sering bilang klo wira *i'm not good boy* , tp nuri tau klo wira cowo baik yang pantes diharapkan...makasi wira bwt semuanya...maaf klo pernah ada yg nuri lakuin dan itu mmbuat wira marah,kecewa,atw sedih..itu d luar dugaan nuri..bahagia terus yaa sm semua pilihan wira :') "

eyes fish (mata ikan)

ini cerita tentang Mata Ikan .. yeah .. penyakit mata ikan . bukan mata ikan beneran !hahaa..
tmn kosan gw ada yg kena penyakit itu d sela" jari kakinya , udh hampir 1 bulan gak sembuh" , dan selama itu pula dy gak periksa k dokter ..
katanya makin lama makin sakit . dan smp pd akhirnya kmrn dy udh gak tahan , gw paksa dy bwt periksa k klinik kampus ,, pagi" td gw sm mair (tmn gw itu) k klinik ..
dy periksa ,, dan kata dokternya .. "yah,,ini harus d angkat..." JEEENGG JEEENGG !! hahaha..awesome ! cool man ! mata ikannya katanya udh trllu dalem akarnya jd harus d angkat . yeah , itu sama aja kyk OPERASI KECIL ! haduuuh , mair udh lemes aja pas tau trnyta sakit yg d sepelein malah jd kyk gt ..
dan akhirnya tuh dokter menganjurkan mair bwt dtng jam stngh 8 mlm bwt nglakuin tugas mulia itu ... gw sm oni pun nganter mair k klinik lg td jam stngh 8 mlm..
dan kita ngedampingin mair yg kakinya lg d udek" ama tuh dokter..gilaaaa gw yg ngeliat aja serem mameeenn..
nah , inilah tahap" tuh dokter ngutak-atik kaki mair :
1) d bius TIGA KALI !!
2) d gunting daging yg d singgahi sii mata ikan tersebut .
3) darah keluar secara berlebihan .
4) d jahit 3 jaitan .
5) d bungkus .
6) dan siap untuk d bawa pulang .. *lhooo..emg makanan* ahahahhaa..

yah , kurang lebih td gt lah proses menakutkan itu terjadi , dan gw cm bs merem melek ngeliatin mair d gtuin .. haduuuhh..sabar ya mair..
abis sls d operasi , gw , oni , mair balik k kosan ..
smp kosan , mair udh nangis" aja .. katanya obat biusnya udh ilang..sakitnya mulai berasa bgt .. gak tahan katanya dy..gak tega jdnya :((
yaudah , dy mnm obat yg dksh dokter , gw bikinin teh anget , dan nemenin dia sebentar d kamarnya ..
lama" dy tenang dan gak nangis lg..GOOD JOB MAIR !! hahaha..

"mair...get well soon yaaa darlene...we praying for you always baby :) come on , proof that your pain okey ! don't cry again . we love you darl :* "




(yah..beginilah keadaan kakinya setelah d bedah.hehhee)

Tik-Tok - Kesha *.*

Verse 1:
Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy (Hey, what up girl?)
Put my glasses on, Im out the door - Im gonna hit this city (Lets go)
Before I leave, brush my teeth with a bottle of Jack
Cause when I leave for the night, I aint coming back
Im talking - pedicure on our toes, toes
Trying on all our clothes, clothes
Boys blowing up our phones, phones
Drop-toping, playing our favorite cds
Pulling up to the parties
Trying to get a little bit tipsy

[CHORUS]
Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the clock
But the party dont stop, no
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh
Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the clock
But the party dont stop, no
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh

Verse 2:
Aint got a care in world, but got plenty of beer
Aint got no money in my pocket, but Im already here
Now, the dudes are lining up cause they hear we got swagger
But we kick em to the curb unless they look like Mick Jagger
Im talking about
Errybody getting crunk, crunk
Boys trying to touch my junk, junk
Gonna smack him if he getting too drunk, drunk
Now, now - we goin til they kick us out, out
Or the police shut us down, down
Police shut us down, down
Po-po shut us down

[CHORUS]

Bridge:
DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
You got me now
You got that sound
Yeah, you got me
DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
Put your hands up
Put your hands up

No, the party dont start until I walk in

[CHORUS]

Semester Pendek .

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
liburan yg seharusnya kurang lebih 3 bulan ini gw pake buat SP *semester pendek* , bukan ngambil matkul keatas , tp malah ngulang 1 matkul yg wkt semester 1 nilainya kyk kancut ! huh.
yeaaaahh,,gw ngulang Nizkii Uroven Grammatikii atau biasa d sebut TBR 1 *tata bahasa rusia 1* , gw gak d lulusin ama dosennya wkt itu . d ksh nilai sempurna JELEKNYA .. yaitu...jeng..jeng..jeng...."E" -,-"
gw gak bego" amat koo ama tata bahasa , gw rajin masuk kuliah , tugas gw full , uts ikut , uas jg ikut walaupun hasilnya jelek juga sih..cm yaa seengganya ksh kek nilai kasian bwt gw , ksh D gtu ,, spy gw bs ngambil TBR 2 d smstr 2 kmrn , ehh gr" nilai kancut itu , gw jd gbs lanjut ngambil TBR 2 . sks gw d kurangin pas smstr 2 kmrn , gak gw doang sh yg dksh nilai kancut kyk gt , ada 9 org yg lainnya .. parah kan ya !hiks..

karena nilai kancut itulah gw harus ikutan SP d liburan panjang ini ..
gw mw ngambil TBR 1 sm TBR 2 spy gw gak nunda lg ampe smstr atas"nya .
spy gw bs ikt TBR 3 , morfologi , serta jenis" tata bahasa lainnya d semester selanjutnya...
gw ogah ngurangin sks lg !
gw ogah nganggur lg pas tmn" gw pd belajar TBR !
pkknya gw OGAH nilai TBRnya anjlok lg !
gila...emak gw bs sedih ntr !

cm td pas gw k kampus bwt nuker blanko pembayaran dan sekalian mw ngisi formulir matkul apa aja yg gw ambil , ada tmn gw yg nasibnya sm kyk gw blg kalo yg gak lulus TBR 1 nya gblh ngambil TBR 2 d SP , gw langsung muntah darah -,-"
apa"an nih ?! gw udh bayar woooiii 4 sks 220rb , trs kalo gaboleh masa duit gw angus sh 110rb?! sayang ontaaa !!
bzbzbzbbzzz -,-"
pkknya gw gamau tau ! tus sks yg gw ambil hrs bs d ikutin semua !
gw pastiin ama dosen wali gw kalo gw bs bikin nilai TBR 1 ama 2 gw jd B !! oke , knp gw milik B ?! knp gak A ?! karena gw tau kemampuan gw ampe mana buat nangkep nilai d TBR .... wehehehhee...

pak .. ayo lah pak.. ijinin saya ngambil SP TBR 2 .. ya pak ya.. saya mohon pak .. i beg to you .. please :'( huhuhu

SEMANGAT FITRIII !!!

my white doll ;)

my white teddy bear's doll :)
so cute ..
i like it :)
*smoooccchhh*

it's my HOBBY ! yeah . awesome ! :D

gw suka nulis..
suka banget nulis..
banyak ide d otak gw buat gw jadiin tulisan..
dr yg bego , idiot , cinta"an , logika , dan lain"..
smp akhirnya gw punya cita" pengen bikin banyak buku ,, yeah .. lebih tepatnya novel . yang nantinya akan bnyk d pajang d toko" buku ternama !
aaaaa... I WISH I COULD GET AND REALIZE THAT MY IDEA ! yeah , certainly YES , I CAN ! hahaha..amin :)

Ain't no Way - Chris Brown .

[Intro:]
Ay, can I talk to you for a minute?
You new around here?

[Pre-chorus:]
Girl ain’t no way, I won’t let you down.
If you let me (just sayin)I will show you how, (I like what I see).

[Chorus:]
Ain’t no way (ain’t no way),
I’m gone let you down (let you down).
I know it’s hard right now (hard right now),
To say (this to me).
But I’m gone make you say you love me.
The way (girl the way), you look to me now (to me now).
We need to get down (let’s get down),
You don’t know but
I’m gone make you say you love me girl.

[Verse 1:]
I ain’t never fell for a girl like you (like you).
With jeans and a body that curves like you (like you).
I don’t really care what they say, when it comes to a difference of age.
I can show you all the things I’ll do.
Break your heart, never raise my voice.
Girl let down your guard.
I know it’s alot to ask trust in me, but I can make a difference right now you’ll see.

[Pre- Chorus:]
Shorty tell me why you tryna keep all the goodies from me?
Can’t you see what you holding, mean, that does to me
Everytime you walk past (ohh)

[Chorus: Repeat 1x]

[Verse 2:]
For a minute can you just think about us two?
Swervin in my 645 SU, me leanin over the seat.
I’m passin you your own set of keys, showin you just how the teen got you.
Trust and believe these words from me been said before.
Trickin’ ain’t my M-O. But girl you represent everything,
That Chris is about so shawty please.

[Pre-Chorus:]
Shawty tell me why you tryna keep all the goodies from me?
Can’t you see what you holding, mean, that does to me
Everytime you walk past, (ohh)

[Chorus: Repeat 1x]

[Bridge:]
For you girl, I’ll buy you anything,
Just to have you close to me.
Cause you know ya lovin is off the wall.
Won’t think to come, girl I’ll take it slow.
I ain’t like the ones’ ya know.
I’m gonna make ya love me all night long.

[Chorus: Repeat 1x]
[music fades out….]

Don't Love You No More - Craig David

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

sorry , i let you down .

i ever love someone ..
he was my friend when i senior high school frist .
i love him slowly , without coercion , truly from my heart..
finally ,, we had a relationship more than just friends . yeah , he's to be my boyfriend .
we also live with a good relationship without the slightest problem ,,
even...........because of this relationship is too good i got bored and felt that this relationship is very tastless :(
i know i was wrong ! but i've not stand him anymore !! i swear ! i'm bored if i still with him !!
he's too good for me..
whatever i do , he always say "yes..yes..yes" although i am doing it wrong !
imagine that ... certainly BORED yeah ?! :'(
the longer ... i'm increasingly uncomfortablewith him ! seriously ! i really feel that !!!
i'm annoyed with he's attitude that makes him so good to look like a sissy . yeah SISSY !! *sorry i say that*
i so feel that he's a coward ! just because he can't acted as a real man and he can't acted as a real boyfriend ...
he's not bad , honestly i say if he very good boy .... but it'svery excessive to me :'(
precisely this attitude that makes me sick and tired of going out with him ..
i also can't dodge if i regret having hurt him , and i rarely don't give him a chance in the hope he could change and act like a real boyfriend .. who can complain when i do something wrong , get angry when i didn't contact him , and certainly can say NO !!
sure , i wanna him like that..
of course not mean i don't accept him what it is !! NO .. certainly not that !!
i just want him to realize that he too made our relationship became very ordinary !

and finally ..
because i can't take it anymore living relationship with him ,, i decided to END RELATIONSHIP THE TWO OF US ! i know that's a wrong decision . but i have to do that .
certainly for the good of me and him :')
honestly ,, I HAD NO SENSE OF LOVE FOR HIM ANYMORE ! i'm sorry about that .


oh yaa..
27-june-2010 ..
i know it's your b'day .. sorry if i'm being indifferent and not care about your happy day it was .
i'm just don't want to make you remember with me anymore ..
and please .. i beg you ,, DON'T EVER GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO HURT YOU :(
i don't want do that anymore ... i could never bear to see you sad and think about me anymore :'(
you're too good for me !
you're happy with a woman who deserves much better than me for sure .
sorry..i just don't love you no more ..
HAPPY B'DAY FOR YOU ... wish you all the best boy :D

once again , i just wanna say "sorry"

bye....acquire your happiness :))