sorry , i let you down .

i ever love someone ..
he was my friend when i senior high school frist .
i love him slowly , without coercion , truly from my heart..
finally ,, we had a relationship more than just friends . yeah , he's to be my boyfriend .
we also live with a good relationship without the slightest problem ,,
even...........because of this relationship is too good i got bored and felt that this relationship is very tastless :(
i know i was wrong ! but i've not stand him anymore !! i swear ! i'm bored if i still with him !!
he's too good for me..
whatever i do , he always say "yes..yes..yes" although i am doing it wrong !
imagine that ... certainly BORED yeah ?! :'(
the longer ... i'm increasingly uncomfortablewith him ! seriously ! i really feel that !!!
i'm annoyed with he's attitude that makes him so good to look like a sissy . yeah SISSY !! *sorry i say that*
i so feel that he's a coward ! just because he can't acted as a real man and he can't acted as a real boyfriend ...
he's not bad , honestly i say if he very good boy .... but it'svery excessive to me :'(
precisely this attitude that makes me sick and tired of going out with him ..
i also can't dodge if i regret having hurt him , and i rarely don't give him a chance in the hope he could change and act like a real boyfriend .. who can complain when i do something wrong , get angry when i didn't contact him , and certainly can say NO !!
sure , i wanna him like that..
of course not mean i don't accept him what it is !! NO .. certainly not that !!
i just want him to realize that he too made our relationship became very ordinary !

and finally ..
because i can't take it anymore living relationship with him ,, i decided to END RELATIONSHIP THE TWO OF US ! i know that's a wrong decision . but i have to do that .
certainly for the good of me and him :')
honestly ,, I HAD NO SENSE OF LOVE FOR HIM ANYMORE ! i'm sorry about that .


oh yaa..
27-june-2010 ..
i know it's your b'day .. sorry if i'm being indifferent and not care about your happy day it was .
i'm just don't want to make you remember with me anymore ..
and please .. i beg you ,, DON'T EVER GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO HURT YOU :(
i don't want do that anymore ... i could never bear to see you sad and think about me anymore :'(
you're too good for me !
you're happy with a woman who deserves much better than me for sure .
sorry..i just don't love you no more ..
HAPPY B'DAY FOR YOU ... wish you all the best boy :D

once again , i just wanna say "sorry"

bye....acquire your happiness :))