should've ....

seharusnya gw bisa tahan perasaan gw ,
seharusnya gw bisa mundur pelan" kalo tau bakalan nyakitin ,
seharusnya gw bisa senyum diem" kalo tau dia gak akan pernah ngeliat k arah gw ,
seharusnya..
seharusnya..
seharusnya..
banyaaakk bangeett kata seharusnyaa d otak gueee !! aaaah !
I REALLY FUCKING FOOLISH !!!

selama ini gw berusaha spy perasaan gw gak terlihat sm siapapun .
berusaha perhatian gw gak terlihat sm dia .
berusaha harapan gw gak d sadarin sm siapapun .
gw udh berusaha bgt gak keliataaannn :(
tp kenapa masih ada aja yg liat perasaan gw :(
gw gamau bikin syp pun terbebani sm perasaan gw .. terutama dia :(

i wanna get closer with you ..
but it just my hope :(
don't look at me anymore , i don't want to be seen by anyone !
i want you don't know my feelings for you :'(
but , don't know why ,, suddenly i feel hurt and destroyed cause of this feeling :(
but , one thing i know for sure .. in deep my heart , all hopes , BROKE :((
no hope anymore .
i know for sure if all these have never BLOOM ! like you say :(
i understand it all . and i'll try to cheer up for you :')
don't look my tears , it's not important !
let's just say there never was any feeling in my heart for you :')